Mirror mirror on my screen, is it my self portrait you have seen?

Mirror mirror on the wall, who’s the  …… ?

This line usually ends with something about being fair or beautiful or kind. Today I’m wondering if the screen on my computer can act as a mirror to reflect my human-ness, my digital self portrait, to show who I am and where I’ve been in online spaces.

This wondering is coming from a combination of things. Maybe from the final assignments I’m marking or from the stream of humorous tweets shared with other #HumanMOOC participants about being human online. How can I ensure I’m creating human interactions or am I talking to a cyber-bot? How is my self portrait painted online?

image of twitter conversation about being human

Conversations in Slack, for example, can have quirky injections from the Slack-bot who’ll make suggestions or recommendations. According to @arasbozkurt bots imitate and replicate, they don’t create!

So my blogs, tweets, and web creations are my human representations of my ‘self’.  My reflection in the mirror of my screen, and the ping-backs and retweets, paint a picture of who I am and where I’ve been. This connects and reflects the work I ask my students to do as they enter into new digital spaces, many of them beginning to blog for the first time.

My screen, and the interactions I see and create, paint an image of my digital self portrait. These zeros and 1’s, written in codes many of us never see, lay out a pattern of colours and shapes to paint my image in digital space. My creations – images, text, audio, video, recordings, mashups or memes – shape my image and portrait. I paint my digital self by the choices of tools, resources and spaces where I share and create.

Do I control or paint my own self portrait or do others control the choice of brushes, colours, or canvas? How do I make thoughtful, mindful, visible choices that add tone, tint, and background to the portrait that I paint? How does the portrait emerge from the dots and swooshes of colour and text?

I think, and hope that I am an attentive and cognizant painter of my digital self portrait.

  • Colours swirling in my digital self portrait include blues (Twitter), oranges and reds (my blog), greens (for all things Google), mauves for MOOC experiences and teal for @VirtuallyConnecting.
  • Shapes include circles (G+, PLN’s) and squares (hangouts, storify curations).
  • Backgrounds include gardens & streams (@HumanMOOC), trees & roots (#rhizo15), and towers (LMS, course production, teaching).
  • Brushes I use include the wide/broad brush of Twitter, the short/stubby blogging brush, the thin brushes of Facebook and LinkedIn, and the multi-purpose brushes of web design and Google tools.
  • My canvas is constructed from my K-8 education experiences and current higher education presence. It is a layered and solid space to paint.
  • Others add splashes of new and interesting colour combinations to my image, as one of my students did recently by adding this Go-Animate production to her blog.

I learn from watching how others paint their digital self portraits. For those who are in academic spheres, this recording of Who are You online? A blog talk discussion recorded on April 15 2015 shares insights and ideas about where to start painting. Participants talk about digital identity for scholars and academics using social media. This conversation reminds me that it takes time to paint with mindfulness and vigilance. Expecting my portrait to be finished quickly and ready for showing is unrealistic.

Screen Shot 2015-12-11 at 5.15.54 PMThis week’s conversation with Kate Bowles about Being Mindful, as part of the HumanMOOC course, reminds me to paint with self-awareness and to share my painting process as a lesson for others. I can model an awareness of the canvas and a responsive to new elements as I plan the picture. Kate’s conversation reminds me to be comfortable in the human struggle and messiness when painting my digital self portrait. It reminds me that my portrait is not a mirror image or a screen reflection. It’s nice to catch glimpses of the human side ‘over the shoulder’. It’s not created by bots with dots calculating equations to produce my portrait.

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I intentionally select to represent myself in digital spaces with a self portrait rather than a digital footprint or a digital tattoo. I’m not creating an imprint in the dirt, left behind to be shaped by wind or weather. I’m not carrying an image impressed in my skin that can’t be changed or adapted without serious laser surgery. I’m painting as I go. Selecting as I emerge from the canvas of past and present.

My portrait is a work in progress, perhaps never to be completed. It’s not a Picasso or a Van Gogh, though I’ve played with Picasso style images in digital space and can create Van Gogh style effects in photo manipulation sites.

So, mirror mirror on my screen. Watch and see what I become! For now, I’ll paint on! I have some blank canvases yet to reveal the portraits to come.

How do you paint your portrait in digital spaces. What choices do you make in technique or colour palette? What subject matter will be in the foreground or background? How do you control the brushes and strokes that shape your image?

Step up. Paint on. Your digital self portrait is yet to be revealed.

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5 Responses to Mirror mirror on my screen, is it my self portrait you have seen?

  1. Aras BOZKURT says:

    Choices we took make us human and shape and define our reflection on digital sphere…

    • HJ.DeWaard says:

      ….. and reflect back to us our own humanity. How we ‘talk’ to others, how we respond to others (particularly when it’s challenging to do so) and how we extend hospitality.

  2. Tai FSB says:

    Hello Professor DeWaard,

    I really enjoyed this post, it had a lot of insightful concepts that I hadn’t yet considered myself. The part that I enjoyed the most however was definitely the theatrics of the post, discussing the impact and the effects the different colours and shapes of the different media sites have in painting your portrait.

    Something I’ve found while online as a digital citizen is that traditionally people refer to this concept sometimes as the their aesthetic, and that it is often reflected in the tone of their posts, the content of the blogs, the medium used, and the actual visual aspects, including the colour layouts and any extras details added in. All of this together invokes not only a digital portrait but feelings that people will often share with the poster and help them relate to them better.

    I myself am often thinking about the thematic elements and the content of my own personal blog. I try to reblog and post content to paint myself as an individual that that is open and welcoming to those who want to discuss common interests while creating a calm environment to keep them from being nervous to do so. I intend to try and carry this theme and tone over to my own professional portrait so that students will never feel nervous about approaching me online even when they are still getting to know me.

    Having said that, my question to you is: What do you think the best strategy for conveying this open and friendly tone while maintaining a professional tone? I’m worried about this because I usually do this by posting light-hearted music and forest scenery, but I’m not sure cluttering a professional blog with this content would be a good idea. I was playing with the idea that the banner on say twitter or other image based sites could be a relaxing photo with possibly a song pinned as the top post, do you think this would be enough to get the job done? Do you have any recommendations for me?

  3. Rosemary Pyke says:

    I love the comparison you’ve drawn between a painted portrait of yourself and your digital footprint in cyber-space. The idea that everything we do in the digital world makes up a portrait of ourselves in cyber-space, is an intriguing and insightful concept to think about. So many people now-a-days do not think about what they put out into the internet and what they post on social media. What the internet users of today post tells so much more about them than they realize, they are, as you mention, painting a picture. The idea that this picture is never fully complete is also a valuable point to make. I agree that there is never going to be a clear cut ending to our picture, it can always be added to. To answer one of your posted question, I think that we are in control of our own painting, but we are not in control of how others perceive it. It has become almost impossible to decipher who it is we are talking to or learning from on the internet in today’s society, and I think that is partly because we assume there is so much more anonymity to the internet than there really is. To look for the ‘human’ behind the screen is not a natural act for many who use this digital space now, many do not look hard enough to see the painted picture you described. Too many people seem to use this digital realm to play out a kind of alter ego, so is their digital portrait truly representative of them? Or is that picture painted to displace a separate being?

  4. Mona Tadayon says:

    Hello Professor DeWaard,
    Thank you for sharing your imaginative view of creating a digital self-portrait. I specifically admire your use of imagery when you explain the different colours and shapes that are used to create your personal portrait through the different outlets of social media you yourself use. I also appreciate the way in which you encourage people to take their time when developing their digital portrait; I can most definitely agree that developing your online personality takes time, and it definitely “unrealistic” to think otherwise. I myself truly enjoy the process of developing my online portrait and like the notion of embracing my “human-ness” when creating and using social media accounts. I want to be genuine and portray the truest version of myself online as an educator, and reading blog posts such as this one make me think about how I control the way I paint my own digital portrait.
    Your blog post has made me think about how my digital portrait is ever-changing and not set in stone; my colours can change and my brush strokes can take a different pattern because I am constantly changing and developing with my portrait.
    With that said, how should I create my current portrait even if it is ever changing? Do I allow myself to explore new colours and symbols in order to continue the development of my self-portrait or, should I continue exploring social media in the way that I am already familiar with? How can I develop a self-portrait for myself as an educator? Moreover, how should my portrait as an educator differ from my current portrait as a student?

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